Insomnia Pt. 1 ( " 9,10... never sleep again " )

Insomnia Pt 1

I turn myself from the left to the right
to the left to the right
walk from the bed to the desk
to the bed to the desk
and then back to bed and again
to the right to the left

Feeding memories from 2.54 am to now:
The evening we fucked for the first time.
You were my first man and i was your sixth girl.
Or was i the eigth?

TV news flickered in the back.
Shadows and Bodies melting together
and by god i loved you (whatever that means)
and by god i adored you

You fell asleep before me,
and
I turned myself from the left to the right
to the left to the right
walked from the bed to the desk
to the bed to the desk
and then back to bed and again
to the right to the left


Next morning - before you left me - we fucked again
Through 4 and a half Johnny Cash songs.

You closed the door behind US
as Johny sang his 10th song (Country Trash)
You on the outside,
I lost
with Cash
at the insight.

Through all those episodes of craziness
- loving you for being kind to me
hating you for being nice to me-
what i remember best is the
laugh
            we shared
                                during our fuck .

I'm sorry to say: It wasn't funny at all
- laughter of deperates saying
we lost it all.

And
I turn myself from the left to the right
to the left to the right
walk from the bed to the desk
to the bed to the desk
and then back to bed and again
to the right to the left